Monday, July 28, 2008

resting, sort of. preparing. for what I'm not entirely certain.



but there's no sense worrying too much about these things. culminations, convergences, coincidences, whatever they might lead to or away from, for the most part I'm contented and when I'm not I'm consoled and very lucky to be well-loved.

the nests I've been making (woven painted spoken sung thought dreamed) have been becoming larger; it's difficult for the shed to contain them, so they find other places to go. this suits me well enough.

black and white appeals to me more. I take fewer pictures, but like them better. delete more, at first with the bliss of purging. now, with the calm of understanding there is nothing that needs keeping, nothing that can't be found again. paint for the sake of painting, but with sometimes the tiniest inkling, like an itch maybe, of what the larger pattern could be.

anyway. I'll be back from time to time. right now it's time to wake up the girls and get ready to walk down the hill to sit on the curb in the cool summer morning and play hangman with the girls while we wait to meet the morning bus. summer school for them, and mornings to myself, serene and purposeful, slowly productive.

3 comments:

Peter Bryenton said...

Summer school - a real boon for mums, I'm sure, but don't the teachers get any holidays at all?

shara said...

a huge boon. enrollment is limited, so I expect most teachers are on holiday, perhaps it's just the ones wanting some income over the summer to tide them over? at least it's just 8:30 - 11:30, and afternoons free. which seems a more sensible kind of school anyway, and breaks both ways.

Pauline said...

Well, I agree with the sentiments in the post AND in your comment - I like the the 3 Cs - culmination, convergence, coincidence! And you're making nests! The photo is a marvelous illustration for this post.

And as for sensible schools, I can't think of a one aside from the BFA program I took where one pursued what one loved until it was mastered and then whooop! off to the next thing. There must be a way to incorporate all the subjects into a cohesive study which can be bolstered by hands-on experience and not have it last 180 days of 40 minute segments! No wonder our kids act distracted (and our teachers exhausted).